My former happiness has faded into a pile of anxiety. Not pleased. I'm getting increasingly nervous about my monologue. My acting teacher is on the side of the critical, and I'm just not in the mood. Phantom is no longer coming to visit tomorrow. Which is probably a smart move, yet it makes me sad. I'm thinking of going home this weekend. I don't know. I should probably stay and prepare for midterm, but I really don't want to. Bah. I need someone to make all of my life decisions for me. Right now. Anyone?